As I sit at my desktop completely overwhelmed I was reminded on several occasions today of the hand of GOD on my life. Earlier I was speaking with some dear friends about an attitude I have taken when simply going to the movies and where I prefer to position myself in the theater in case anything ever goes down. (this mindset of course was from the result of current events, as well as my training in Krav Maga classes) But one of the participants gifted me with their sentiments saying if anyone could talk a unstable individual out of taking lives, it would be you.
I continued my day, and as I prepared for two services tonight, I admit I had my doubts. I didn't doubt GOD, I doubted would people, my people, the people I love, and the people they love that they invited & prayed for to come would be able to by 3pm. I honestly banked on the 3pm service being the lightest when after the counts were over....we were pressing 150, only to turn around 5pm a go over 100 completely new worshipers. The above scripture mentions the giving and receiving of gifts. For those that know me, my love language is not gifts (receiving of them anyway). Sure I appreciate and love good gifts, but I don't look for them or expect them especially during the celebration of Christ's birthday. From the cookies, gift cards, the Force Awakening socks ( I will be rocking them), to BBQ hand towels, Dallas Cowboy crockpots, sweet treats (that will insure my lifelong membership to planet fitness), NEW KNIVES & such, Christmas cards.....I was completely shocked by every last one of them to the point I needed to step away from the cards, bags, boxes, and ask myself "What's the Best Gift I Received This Year...?"
Christ told His disciples as he was preparing to leave them.......
“I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid. John 14:27
And honestly folks (I expressed this a few days ago) irregardless to all the great things that have happened this year, I reached a point where I wondered what was going on. Not depression, not fearful but simply troubled. If you have every worked in a church you know what I speak of. If you've ever been a pastor of a GROWING church you can identify. While growth is good, no it's great....and not just filling seats growth, but spiritual growth too all come with a new set of challenges. My heart is for EVERY LAST soul that GOD blesses me to share air with. Whether that is at Calvary Church, Costco, Planet Fitness, Brittany Cove, or..............but with each additional person that adds another burden on my heart that they know Christ, and whenever that's complicated by misunderstandings, emotions, ...........that can cloudy the message and ministry. To some extents relationships have fractured/splintered/ended and my prayer is that somehow these too will be/can be reconciled. So for those many moments in 2015 GOD has blessed me with a peace of mind and heart that I don't need to be afraid or overly concerned that HE WILL GROW HIS CHURCH and the GATES OF HELL SHALL NOT PREVAIL. This is/was helpful to me as it takes the burden of trying to keep together things that GOD is trying to prune so that WE can be more fruitful. MORE FRUITFUL......FRUCTIFEROUS....this is funny to me as if we have been one thing this year it's been FRUCTIFEROUS. EVERY MINISTRY has grown in leaps and bounds, and not only that the people of C4 have become prayer warriors that GOD has blessed to see and understand the power of prayer. So you ask, Ray .....would you answer your own question....Oh..right....with all the gifts GOD has given me to which I have purposed my heart to use them to serve others, WHAT WAS THE BEST GIFT I RECEIVED THIS YEAR? It was hope. Romans 5:3-5 says it like this:
We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. 4 And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. 5 And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.
See many of you have thought you needed The Whole Story for you. You've tweeted, posted, shared how much it has blessed you, but I have to admit as a young, growing pastor, or a young dynamic growing multi-cultural/ethnic church I NEEDED THIS to simply remind me of how GOD blessed those who were faithful to Him, His mission, and His people. It was this reminder that as I came upon problems & trials that I begun to develop endurance that I didn't know or think I had. It was like me starting off at 20-30's floors on the stair master, and now bossing 100+ levels without dropping dead. That endurance then matured into developing/strengthening my character so that THIS HOPE I'd be able to share with others daily. This gift of HOPE hasn't not lead to disappointment because if anybody knows GOD loves them...it's me, and my goal is to convince every person I meet that He is just as crazy about them, as He has proven He is about me.
I'm thankful for each of you....my wonderfully amazing two person staff that continue to keep me lifted up in prayer and supported in ministry, to the 45+ dedicated volunteers that has made Calvary Church campus I pastor a place where the hurting can find a home to heal, and then get well enough to get back in the game of life. To my close friends, neighbors, and family members thanks for bearing with me as GOD continues to do a new work in me. To the visitors, attenders, and members you are valuable to us, and you keep us from becoming a stagnant holy huddle. Keep coming, keep inviting, keep serving, and keep trusting GOD to do what only He can do with our jacked up lives. You all are my second greatest gift in 2015 second to HOPE. Merry Christmas......and I hope to see more and serve more with you in 2016. LGLP365








